The Tulpa Info Blog
First off, I’m now living in Orlando, Florida, going to UCF. If anyone near this area wants to test if tulpae can see other tulpae (or just get some coffee) shoot me an email.
Anyway, I’ve got a major update here, guys. It involves mainly things that has happened between Chess and I during this whole thing. Before I go into that though, I get to brag about Chess coming up with a visualization technique that seems to have helped a lot of people. If you have a chance, check it out and let me know how well it went for you.
Anyway, my really big update. It’s a bit of a read, people said it caused feels, and others said that it helped them, especially with their tulpa and doubt/faith in them, etc. I should note for the ‘tl;dr’ guys, paragraph 2 is what Chess and I’s current situation is. Paragraph 4 is the tl;dr of the whole thing (though I’d recommend you take some time to read it, though it’s a bit of a read). Anyway, here you are: Pleeb’s Progress Report: Major Update.
I just reblogged Bluesleeve’s entry, and it pretty much summarizes it. For those of you who don’t know, I was invited onto the NCK&FRIENDS radio show about a month ago, after they did a previous show on tulpae — showing them in a more negative light. Some members got together and decided that we should show the listeners that tulpae just aren’t those monsters under the bed, or the boogymen in the closet, but actual thinking, feeling, sapient, individuals. What better job then, to have tulpae themselves make their case?
I could say that things went very well, though. However, for about the first half of the show, I must admit, I was nervous — very nervous. I’m not one to do things like this normally, but I tried my best to represent this growing community. Aside from hyperventilating into the mic during the first half of the show, I’ve been told I did a good job on there, handled the questions well, etc, but I have yet to listen to how I actually did… I’ll do it tomorrow, then I’ll facepalm through the whole thing.
We’ve had some Q&A both directed to me and several tulpae (off the top of my head, Atasco, Lauren, Lyra, Mio, Morgan, Vinyl, I think, and I’m sure there were a few more as well). It was really interesting to see the diversity of opinions on the different schools of thought (metaphysical and psychological) as well as the amount of respect and neutrality between the two schools shown in this very community.
A shoutout also goes out to Atasco. He had the confidence to make a call into the show, and while he was probably more nervous than me, he goes down in history as the first tulpa to voice their words on the radio, and possibly any vocal media. And what were his historic words? “I got dibs!”
Anyway, you can listen to the radioshow here: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/nckabbalah/2012/08/07/nckfriends
Note: For those in the psychological camp, heed the warning, the show is heavy on the spiritual school in the beginning; the first 9 minutes are pretty much ‘filler’ stuff until I call in; however, you will find an appreciation in the mutual respect given during the show.
On July 10th, 11th, and 12th I won’t be around tupla.info or the IRC. I’m going out into the forest, in a tent, to isolate myself. The goal of this is to get rid of all of these distractions around me, just so I can spend some time alone with Chess. While she’s quite sapient now, I still have trouble hearing her if I’m not directly focusing on her, and she’s not the most vocal tulpa in the world. I’m looking forward to this trip, and Chess seems to be as well.
Meanwhile, I’m happy to say that we’ve reached Rank#5 in Google! We are now ranked higher than tulpa.com and next stop is getting higher than davisanddavis’s website and the creepypasta wiki — I’m not sure if we can compete against the almighty wikipedia, but I will be content with being in the top 3!
Anonymous asked: I have a question about the personality side of your tulpa creation process. When doing each trait were you simply talking to yourself about it or did you have an image of your tulpa in your mind and you were talking to that or (this is the last or) where you talking to something random in your mind, like a ball or something, in which you placed the traits and then did you give the object to your tulpa to give said tulpa personality?
For the majority of the personality process, I was simply talking out loud to the tulpa about the personality. She didn’t have any form at that point, or even a gender. Eventually she became an energyball, then I morphed that energyball into a form after personality was finished.
I think the goal of the personality process is to define the personality of your tulpa, how it’s done is up to you.
Well guys, my tulpa is quite the active one recently. I have no doubt in my mind that she sentient and she’s getting more sapient every day, that is, she’s becoming more vocal every day.
Every other day (except for today and the next few days, since I’m sick ;~;), I’d take my tulpa out on a walk through the forest. Every day, I’d take her for normal walks around the neighborhood. I’d spend this time narrating to her and stuff, and it’s shown pretty good results. As I said, she’s pretty active.
Well, for the past week or so, she’s been vocal-ish. By this, I mean that she would randomly say things here and there, usually when I ask her something (but also when she randomly asks about something). The voice is “quiet,” and I’m not completely sure if it’s parroting or not, especially since she rarely says things “out of the blue” — I have to be thinking about her of focusing on her most of the time.
I’ve spoken with a few people about this, and know at least three other people who have reported this; one of them having a fully vocal and sapient tulpa now (and another possibly having a fully vocal and sapient tulpa, but he’s in the same boat I’m in).
On another note, google ranks! What happens if I bring up an incognito window in Chrome and do a google search for the word “tulpa”? Well, according to my search, we are ranked #8 for that keyword. Matter of fact, we’re on the first page! Big thanks to everyone who has been helping push this site to the top, and I think with enough effort, we can pass tulpa.com (which is currently rank #7, #6, and #5).
P.S. My tulpa claims that she is indeed the one speaking.
I figured I should post some updates to what’s been going on. First, I’d like to thank everyone who’s helping with the SEO on Tulpa.Info! Things have been going pretty well, and when you google “tulpa” you can find this website on the second page! And on Twitter? Well, @tulpa_info currently has almost 400 followers, and most of them are in the research/academic/psychology field!
Now, as for my tulpa… I haven’t been posting much, because not much has been happening up until recently. It was probably about one or two days ago, my tulpa started showing movement, but I wasn’t quite sure if I was parroting or not. Well, let’s just say I can no longer use King of the Vandenreich’s Prism to test if I’m parroting or not, because my tulpa has become too fidgety. She is usually moving head out of the way of the sea-saw (edit: seesaw? Whatever), and when I finally get it planted on her, she sure enough backs her head away causing it to just fall!
Also, over the past few days to a week, I’ve also been slowly working on a wonderland. It’s nothing special, just a generic “huge grasslands going for miles, with a forest in the distance surrounding it, and behind the forests, are huge mountains; dunno what’s behind mountains” type thing. House (more of a shack) in the middle with a bed and TV; TV is supposed to give limited access to my memories, that is, it can play TV shows I previously watched. No idea how well that concept will work, but right now the TV is playing LOST and my tulpa is sitting on the bed in the wonderland watching it.
No, she isn’t a butterfly in the literal sense, but she did something yesterday that freaked me out.
Since I pretty much have her visualized perfectly, I was just kinda killing time and working more on personality. What I do, is visualize the trait and something about the trait on paper, then land the paper on her back and it kinda glows and absorbs into her. Okay, well about an hour in, one of the traits came up, where she has a “strong spirit” (you know, strong-willed, etc). So I put that over to her, and visualized it like a glowing orb, and put it into her chest. At that moment, I started feeling a bit of pressure in my head (right under my cranium?), and I got that feeling of a “presence” — also started feeling abit of emotions, but I’ll to that.
So yeah, what did I do? I kept going! The next 40 minutes involved me putting her traits one by one into her by making them become these little glowing balls, and putting them into her chest. As I continued, that feeling of pressure, etc, persisted.
Well, after that 40 minutes, she changed form. Well, she changed color and stuff; looks the same but somehow different. She got more “real,” got a bit darker in color (well, a lot darker in color).
Everyone in IRC are all, “Deviation.” This is one heck of a way to deviate; here’s a log from the IRC, I explain what just happened:
19:21 <+Pleeb> That’s when it changed (didn’t change form, but it changed color, everything but the eyes).
19:23 <+Pleeb> It’s not that it changed, it’s how it changed that freaked me out.
19:24 <+Pleeb> The old tulpa kinda ended up acting like a shell, where the new version broke out of the shell.
19:24 <+Pleeb> And I had the surge of emotion.
19:24 <+Pleeb> Just freaked me out.
19:24 <+Pleeb> She looks different now.
I actually tried to re-visualize her in the old form again, put her back, you know? That lasted about a whole 4-5 seconds, until the old form “peeled off” from the top-down like when you’re peeling a hard-boiled egg.
At this point, Irish was being all, “Caterpillar broke out of its cocoon! “
Now everyone says I have a butterfly tulpa.
This morning is going back to the normal session. For a bit, I was seeing both forms in my “mind’s eye,” but the old form is pretty much gone now, and I can bring the new one up pretty well. I’ll be visualizing more today, might actually move on to Touch soon.